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Exchange Letter - Fic In A Box 2022

Thu, 01 Sep 2022 01:09:40 GMT

Well well well, if it isn’t my dear creator ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

( EXTRA DETAILS )

( GENERAL LIKES )

( ART LIKES )

( MEDIUMS )

( 20 Minutes Till Dawn )

( Bloodborne )

( Final Fantasy XII )

( Gris )

( Hades )

( Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice )

( Original Work )

( Shadow of the Colossus )

( Thalasso Hobbyer )

( Vampire Survivors )

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Fic Round Up 2021

Sat, 01 Jan 2022 21:48:07 GMT

Yoinked from moetushie

I thought it would be fun to take a broader look at what I've done this year. Besides, I'm always a sucker for talking about fic writing in general.

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September Round-Up

Sat, 25 Sep 2021 08:12:26 GMT

I've never done this before (on DW) and also I'm not sure how many times I'll do it, but I've always enjoyed talking to the void (I miss when twitter was less complicated and less crowded), so I want to try. Also, I've been consuming some good media lately and would like to share it.

This shouldn't need to be said, but for the sake of warding off possible future headaches: These Are Just My Opinions, Art Is Subjective, You Can Like Whatever You Want, Have A Good Day.

What I've created this month:

( here )

What I've consumed this month:

( here )

Plans for next month:

( here )

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Triple Crown 2021-2022: tracking my progress

Wed, 25 Aug 2021 01:30:55 GMT

(to anyone wondering: triplecrownofexchanges)

I failed on the first round of 3c because it took me too long to decide what to treat for FFFX, and when I finally did, depression hit me like a truck at 200 km/h. But this year I am determined

So nothing better than making my progress public to really kick me in the pants about it ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ (though this time I'm at least signed up, so the works will be done if it's the last thing I do)

Fic In A Box: Oof, FIAB is done! It was so much fun, much more than it was in 2020, first because I actually had the spoons to do the things I wanted, and second because the EAD discord is a lovely rambunctious place, and it's hard to be sad when everyone is being silly. I'm pretty satisfied with the things I created for this round :D Swapping little chunks of assignments is a really good idea, and I'm glad I took part in it, cause every time I got kinda tired of dealing with one assignment, I could just hop over to another one without feeling guilty for procrastinating.

The responses to my works have been very lovely as well (omg impostor syndrome, give it a break), and I can't wait to see who my creators are, because my gifts are so good ;_;

I might not participate in 3c next year (I wanna focus on my wips), but FIAB is absolutely on the list of exchanges to keep doing every year (￣∀￣)

Heart Attack: Oh man, HA was so fun this year. I joined the server really late last year and I was really shy about interacting with people, so I ended up not being part of the hype at all. But this year I caught it from the very beginning and it's super fun to share your fic woes while everyone screams alongside you at the tight deadline! Also the mod is a very sweet person who helped me when I needed <3

I knew I was gonna like my assignment, but I ended up loving the fic I wrote for it, and even though it was stressful, I wouldn't change anything xD Also, my recip loved the fic too, so win/win!

I'm probably not gonna participate in HA next year, because it takes a lot of energy and I'd like to use that energy for some WIPs I have lying around... unless there's a request that sparks an idea. Then I might consider it!

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Ephemerality in Fandom

Tue, 06 Jul 2021 07:06:25 GMT

When I was a teen, I was always worried about preserving the content I had on my computer, whether it be texts I wrote, or music I downloaded, or a random funny video I found somewhere. Most of my friends didn’t understand this urge; there was this misplaced faith that those things would simply always be there, available at any point in time.

I've done the idiotic thing of deleting files here and there, under the thought of "I can always redownload it later", only to find out in that much anticipated later that those files were nowhere to be found.

Years later, and a lot of those things lost to time and moving and deletion and misplaced floppy disks/cds/pen drives, my interest in preserving things has been reignited.

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On forgiving your own limits

Wed, 23 Jun 2021 10:37:52 GMT

So yesterday I woke up and decided, after a long week of thinking about it and weighing the pros and cons, to drop out of a Big Bang I was participating in. It's for one of my favorite fandoms, and I was writing about my most beloved OTP... and yet I couldn't bring myself to sit down and write, and the few times I managed, nothing that came out was something I was satisfied with.

Putting aside the important matter of ADHD and executive dysfunction for now, it took me some time and a good talk with some friends to realize that, only two months ago I wrote a whole 56k fic for another Big Bang in another fandom, and all those words were mostly written in a month, and I'm absolutely suffering from creative exhaustion. And still, it took me getting closer and closer to the deadline, and having my BB team asking for updates, and me spiraling down into anxiety, to realize that the problem is not that I'm lazy or incompetent; no, the problem is that, amidst a pandemic that's been going on for almost a year and a half, and after writing a shit ton of words in a small amount of time (I basically won NaNoWriMo, lol) I was obviously exhausted, both physical and mentally.

It speaks a lot to the unrealistic expectations we place on ourselves, that we need to almost burnout (or in some cases actually burnout for real) to realize that you need to dial back.

It hasn't been easy, dealing with the unwarranted guilt, the feeling that I've disappointed my BB team and the mods and myself. Thankfully they've been nice and understanding, and yet I feel like I failed. But I know I made the right decision because, despite feeling sad about the situation, I'm mostly relieved that I won't have to deal with all the negative feelings that the BB was giving me.

I still want to write my fic, and now I can do that without a deadline breathing down my neck (which is something I usually enjoy, but apparently only when my battery is at least at 75%)

Oof, feels good to get this off my chest. Not wanting to disappoint people is something I've been slowly learning how to deal with, especially since fandom is supposed to be fun in the first place, and sometimes we simply expect very unrealistic things of ourselves.

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An Introduction

Sat, 19 Jun 2021 00:00:15 GMT

[under construction]

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