Wow, kudos to you on multiple fronts here! Writing such a massive amount of words for one bang, and understanding your limits and dropping out. I really understand the guilt over possibly disappointing people, I deal with that a lot too.
I actually signed up for my first big bang this year and picked the lower possible tier (only 4-5k words, over many months) and I'm still finding it stressful 😂 I was talking about it with a friend who is new to these as well and we think it's because rather than just "deadlines" there's that feeling that people are waiting on you and it's a different kind of pressure. Lots of admiration for you managing to write something so long for such an event, and taking some time away to recover and refill your creativity well now sounds super wise!!
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I actually signed up for my first big bang this year and picked the lower possible tier (only 4-5k words, over many months) and I'm still finding it stressful 😂 I was talking about it with a friend who is new to these as well and we think it's because rather than just "deadlines" there's that feeling that people are waiting on you and it's a different kind of pressure. Lots of admiration for you managing to write something so long for such an event, and taking some time away to recover and refill your creativity well now sounds super wise!!
(Also... Hi! Dropping in from Pi's blog, haha)